Sunday, September 28, 2008

feelings of old

I had surgery on my neck done almost two months ago, and I've been back in physical therapy for the last few weeks. I'm going to same place that I was before the surgery. It's amazing how many beautiful girls work there! This place isn't what you think of when you're injured and hear the word "rehab", that's for sure. While there are a lot of beautiful girls there, only one has caught my eye. Her name is Monica.

Monica has always been very attentive to me when I go in for my sessions, and we talk a little bit when she's not busy helping anybody else. I went back to work just the last week for the first time in over 5 months, and have subsequently had to wear my work clothes in to physical therapy. The first time I wore my work clothes to PT, Monica greeted me and was having trouble saying what she wanted to say...she kept stumbling over her words and started blushing. Even the therapist commented on her sudden inability to communicate. Toward the end of this session, she asked me if I had another appointment later in the week. I told her that I had one on Friday, and that I looked forward to it. We said our goodbyes and that was that.

That night, I decided that I was going to ask her out. Then I had the problem of figuring out how to do it in a way which would be very effective, but would also minimize my embarrassment if I were to be rejected. Most guys are usually somewhat paranoid about the rejection factor. It's tough to be rejected and all, but to be rejected in a room full of people would be terrible!

Friday came, and I was all set to pop the question haha! As it turned out, I had one chance to do it and was about to do it...and she was called away to help someone else. =( I asked her what she was doing over the weekend, and she said that she was going out to play pool with all the girls that work there. In hindsight, I see that I should have asked if it'd be alright if I came along. If she said no, I could have asked about going out with her at a later date. It's hard to have a full minute of conversation with her in a place as busy as that! ARGH!

My next appointment is this Wednesday, and if the opportunity presents itself I am going to jump on it! I haven't felt this giddy in so long, the feelings seem almost alien to me! I can't wait to get comfortable with them again!!! And I can't wait to see where this is headed by 6:15 this Wednesday!! I am long overdue for this!